My thoughts.

I think i might need to move to a 3 room flat as my father is the only one working in the family right now. And his income is not very stable. What's more, there's still the medical expenses to cover, for the operation, for my mum's chemotherapy and for the repayment of debts.

My father came inside my room, and asked me where do i want to live? Teck Whye or Bukit Batok? You know what, i really love this flat of mine, this room and all of it. But i guess i have no choice but to move. With the residual amount of money made from the sales of the flat, i really hope it can at least tide us over this crisis.

I have been feeling so down these few days. I have been doing a lot of thinking.

My mum will be going for her brain scan tomorrow. And the report should be out 2 hours later tomorrow. I'm so afraid suddenly, of what will the result be? I know i shouldn't worry this much, but i can't help it.

You know, there's been so much going on around me for the past 1 or 2 years. Indeed, it has mould me into a stronger person. Yes, a stronger me. But i'm starting to think, am i really strong for all these things which are coming my way?

Think my mum's eye would most probably be removed. Doctor says it might already be affected, but he just need a report to confirm it. I know she must be feeling so terrible inside. Beauty is the most important thing to a woman. She needs chemotherapy and all the chemo sessions will make her feel sick. And there would most probably be ulcers growing in her mouth, and she might not feel like eating most of the time. But you know what, i'm gonna be there for her all the time. :)

I was thinking, all these seem like God's plan to better my relationship between me and my family.

I hope my mother would be healed.