I'm so damn tired man.

Went CWP to watch Shark Tales with Sarah, Manping, Pekhar and Jiewei. I feel so damn dumb. Actually forgot Jiewei was coming to the movies with us. Forgot to buy his ticket. But anyway, we moved to the rows ahead of us for 5 seats. But kinda near the screen. Sorry ah.

But nway, just watched the news. Huang Na died liao. So sad. I thought things wouldnt have ended this way. Now i think the parents hate SG. The father said SG was a fire hole and he shouldnt have brought Huang Na here.

Nway, took lotsa stupid photos and poses with the movie de life size poster. We look dumb but it was FUN!

Hai.. So boring.. Going my coussie place tml.. To slack...

Monday will be here in a few more hours... I know i will be depressed today.. The reason i also dont know why... He will be leaving... But what time i dont know... Although he will be there for 3 weeks nia.. But i still miss him.... I'm silly....

I'm jus misssssing him so much.........

I wanna FLY AWAY too...

Got back home @ 5.30am. OMG. That was so damn freaking 'early'.

Went out with jean, weida, chongling, kenny and that Soon You. Supposed to go MU to club. But then last minute cancelled. Hahaha. Then aft that, slacked @ PS fer a while and went to watch THE GRUDGE. Which was my suggestion. And din turned out tt gd. But nvm, it was free anyway. Was Kenny's treat.

Nway, felt so awakward around tt Kenny.

He sms me aft i got into da cab with SY, Jean and weida that he wanted to send me home actually and asking if i have enjoyed the day. I mean, was sweet of him la. But then kinda freaks me out. Anyway, i wonder why the hell did i wake up so early fer?

U know whats the most gawd damn horrifying part?

I was thinking about BEN most of the time.

KILL ME.

I'm so vexed as Monday comes. I dream of him every night.

That we are still together and we are still joking with each other. I don't wanna wake up.

Dex called me yesterday and told me something shocking.

Hmm..

Can i just fall into a coma and just sleep my life away?

Realised quite a lot of people r troubled from relationships problems. Why is this so? October is a bad bad month, this is a bad bad year.

Anyway i think i have got a job. Most probably. Sales promoter promoting Tiger Beer at Sembawang Giant Supermarket. At $6/hr and hafta wear their T-shirt.

Damn it.

I'm feeling so irritaed with everything. Perhaps becoz of my menses.

GRR. Leave me alone.

depressed still

Went CitiSpa for some fcuking massage and some fcuking customer service. It just ain't my day.

I had a 4mins massage which totally sucks and Grace had a less than 3mins eye browing plucking. I mean wtf? Do they have to stoop so low just because we used NTUC INCOME free voucher. I mean, if their customer service was gd, we would definately go back there for other treatments. But there, they BLEW it BIG TIME.

I'm gonna write a damn complaint. I wanna tell the whole world not to go to CITISPA at YISHUN!

Anyway, Jean just left my place not long ago. Helped her do her prezzie thingy to her dar dar. Crapped as usual. Found out that if i nv crapped with her, kind of felt strange somewhere.

Todae took MRT to Toa Payoh aft treatment to Grace's bf place to meet Winnie and Wonder her bf's bro's gf 2 doggies. Was damn cuteeee. Din bark at all. Breed was Shihtzu and the fur of Winnie was covering her whole face, and i couldnt see her eyes at all. Had to tie up her hair b4 it's visible.

Ya, as the MRT passed by AMK, my body suddenly tilted to the window pane and stared at the familiar surroundings which i used to see every week. But suddenly it's just not within my scope anymore. I saw the familiar pri sch near his place, the SHELL station in frt of his place, his neighbourhood, his block... And the carpark.. I was thinking, well, could he be at home this moment? And this was the place he would go back to every day during this period i won't be seeing him.

You know what? I realised i do love him a lot. Too much.

Someone told me, If you really loved him, forgive him and respect his decision. God will show the plans he made fer you someday. I find it really true.

I missed him a lot. But... I thought of what he said to me that day... I don't want to see you... If you come to my house, you won't see me ever again... I don't love you anymore....

I know he's trying to make me hate him by saying things he don't want to and wants to help me minimise my sufferings to the shortest and minimum... But don't he realise what he's doing is totally wrong? But i know i can't do anything about it...

Haiz... Holidays feel so sianz... He's going australia this coming Monday... Hhe will not be in SG to share the same weather with me.. The same sun.. The same air... The same place.. The same rain.. The same TV progs... WHATEVER!

I'm still depressed.

1st bloggie..

Hey this is my first post on my new blog. Any idea why i created a new blog? Because he knew my blog address and i know he would definetly pop by to have a look. I mean, it isnt fair right when he knows how i am getting on and coping with this heartbreak thing and i dunnoe a single clue about him.

But anyway, felt much better now compared to the week when i was waiting for his sms.... Looking back at it, that week was really just plain torturous... I can't eat, sleep nor do anything... His images were everywhere, haunting me down...

I'm glad i have gone thrg the worst period of my life and am on the road to recovery now. Hee hee. I'm sorry if i talk about this a lot yeah? Really needed somewhere where i can blog down the memories to my road of recovery. Someone asked me, what if he comes back when u're already happily attached? I can't answer that question at this point of time.. I can't imagine that i'll be 'happily' attached with another guy again... It just seems so far away ya know that feeling?

But anyway, Siew teng just gif me a call.. Going for a 1 day Spa with Grace tml... At Citispa.. And whats the most happening part is that it's totally FREE!! i hope it is.. If it isn't, mop the floor for em lor.. mop for 10 years also cannot repay the money... Think i'm choosing the anti stress massage.. I really need that manz...

Gonna meet Jean and Chongling later at jurong east and orchard respectively.. Going Kelly Services and Recruit Express to register for our damn jobs... Hahaha.. I wonder how many percent of our pay they r gonna take manz...

But anyway, i'm so hungry now.. Boo hoo hoo....