Just finished tidying up my messy room. And it certainly ain't a eye-sore anymore. I'm thinking of sticking post-cards onto the small piece of empty space in front of me right now. It looks empty and out of place. Hmm, gotta collect more free cards from now on. -oops- Do i sound like the typical Singaporean? Well, i am, i admit.

Was watching Fear Factor Couples Special on SCV just now. Had completely no idea the reason behind their repeated broadcasts of this COUPLE SPECIAL. It's been repeating fer months and hey i'm a customer okie!

Appalled by the strength of unity of the couples. Even though one of the gf don't dare to lie into the container and be covered by 500 spiders(mind you, HUGE spiders! Crickets were also placed inside to stimulate the activities of the spiders), the bf though was a bit mad at first, but later hugged her and fondled her and told her that it was okay and told her not to cry. So they were eliminated of the contest. One step away from getting 1 Million dollars.

But well, what's the point of getting so much money? It's very tempting. But i would rather spend some simple days with my guy. Simplicity is contentment isn't it? The richer you get, the more worries you have. It's beyond our control. It does happen this way.

Can't stop thinking about him today. From morning until now. Came to a point i wanted to CRY my heart out, but somehow or rather, no matter how i forced my tears to come out, it just won't. But well, i gather this is just a process. Time is the ultimate healer. But would i ever recover and have the courage to step into another relationship again? But well, i guess i would have to remain single for a long long time.

Shiling's nick really reflected how i felt inside and what i thought of freedom. Being single is hassle free but yet it still does have its cons too. Not reporting to someone of your activities, more time spent with families and friends, freedom to make more friends, no more quarrels. I believe what i have listed is what you have listed too. I'm still exploring to find out more.

Oh well, still haven got to the main point yet. Shiling nick was "Ji mo de lin yi ge ming zi jiao zuo...........ji mo.............". Which meant that another name for Freedom is called Loneliness.

Anyway, i studied fer most of the time. Mainly DAY-DREAMING. Because i studied while lying down on the bed. How LAZY is that, right?

I'm granting myself half an hour to surf the net as a form of reward.

Went fer dinner with Jeffrey, Jessie and PekHar. Jeffrey looks more handsome. -oops- Btw i found out a secret recipe. Yuan lai Our scholar Jeffrey drinks IndoCafe Coffee. No wonder he can score good grades. Btw in case you're wondering who is Jeffrey. He's Jessie younger brother. *smirk smirk* 17 years old i think, right Jess? He's single available and UP FER GRABS! Any interested takers? I'll be glad to play the matchmaker.

Tuition has been changed from Mon to Wed (730pm). Called the girl's mother and asked her if she want any assessment books but din manage to buy yet as i was unsure if the assessment topics was in accordance with her sch textbook. Better make sure first, if not i'll waste the money. Guess i'll have to mug real hard on wed fer my OM test. It's a 830 paper somemore. I'm going to collapse.

Anyway, i'm going to buy Anna Sui's perfume. It smells quite good. And a top @ Jennifer.

Lord, shine your light down on me and lift me up so i can see. Give me the strength to carry on. I pray that Jessie will be able to do her test with ease tomorrow and i pray that she will have the motivation to carry on studying for her other tests. Lord, i surrender myself to you, please take away all my fears and worries. I pray for a good week ahead for me and all my friends. I pray in the name of Jesus, Amen.

Currently at Peixuan's room, typing this entry. Came here aft my tuition.

Anyway, got a tuition assignment from our dear Jessie. Had to tutor a Phillipino(i tink so) girl Primary 1 -Chinese- fer 2 times a week, 1 and a half hrs each time. And i will get $120. But her Chinese is kinda bad bah. Still unsure of how to write her own name and the chinese date. Hafta make her do as homework. Din realise i overshot the time until her mom told me.

Goin to Sab's place to make the refreshments fer our CELL later. And guess what, we are making lanterns today! Fer CNY.. And i brought lotsa angbaos. Hmmm. Guess it would be fun. Going to share cab with Ella later. That goon do. Style her hair until so long. I think ard 45 mins ler. I'm going to hack her to pieces later.

Anyway guess my 1st tuition went quite okay. But a lil situation cropped up as i was locked out in the earlier morn coz they were still sleeping. And no one opened the door fer me. And i had to call the damn agent up. This month, will be only getting $60. As half of it will go to the agent. Bleah. Blardy Shit.

Yest night had insonmia as i was too nervous. Only felt into deep sleep at ard 3am.

Goin to chiong home to memorise my E-commerce blardy hell theories later.

Going down to wait fer shiling cab now. HO SEI.

Any idea what's the true human nature about? Hypocrisy? Sarcasticism?

Sometimes i feel so miserable, because i can't differentiate whether someone is being sarcastic or just being the person he/she whoever was. But YES, i'm sickk of all these nonsense. But i'm not going to torment myself with this anymore. Because we are different individuals and you can do whatever you want. I don't give it a DAMN. Just don't pissed me off until i screamed my head off.

Do you happen to appear as a friend on the outside but inside, u are actually NOT?

If you happen to fall in this category, see the CROSS on the IE page? Click that and FARK OFF.

Feeling so dumb now. For getting myself drunk like a pig yest at Chinblack. Special thanks to Joey(Zu'er), Jessie and Pekhar fer taking care of me. I promise i won't get drunk again because the hangover sucks. And i shouldn't get drunk also, shouldnt have drank. I felt ultimately ashamed of myself. I proclaim myself to be a Christian yet i got drunk. WHAT THE HELL right?

But nway, yest went to Chinablack with Kelvin Yap & his friends which is ALOT, Justin, Jiewei, Jessie, Pekhar and Zu'er. BABY it's LADIES NIGHT! Jiewei.. ER.. Hmmm... EHH... Drunk also.. And mmmm also Kelvin Yap.. The way he toks makes you think he was almost gonna fall on u and kiss you.. Not me lar.. But the way he toks to Jess mar.. and some guys.. Hahaha...

Went to the toilet fer PIG knows how many times in a row yesterday.
And now, i'm drinking WATER like i haven never drank before. I feel so dehydrated.
Woke up with a lil headache. Felt as if my head was stuffed with cotton wool.
Or perhaps my head is stuffed with shit. Only discovered it in the 19th yr of my life.
I smelt of cigarettes. My damn clothes too. It's a piece of SHIT!
My body feel so -the opposite of energetic-.
Slept for only a mere 3 hours if i'm not wrong. I'm super guilty fer not studying.

Saw Eve and Geraldine and Cheryl and Nana(if i'm not wrong), and Sarah and Alex there yest. Din expect to see em as we were supposedly staying at home to study. All the abovementioned are from NP BS. And the latter two are from my class. But glad to see em. Felt as if NP rocks the world. Ehhh.. Ok lar.. SP too!

I'm gonna study OM now. Good luck to me.

It has been a great cell yet again. Sab never fails to make the cell interesting. We drew on the coloured paper AGAIN and this time round, we used a pie chart to piece out the different attributes and characteristics of God. I'm realli glad i am getting to know God better each time i go fer cell group.

Went fer dinner @ Jurong East S-11 with Sabrina, Si'er, Shiling(oops' ella), Peixuan, Zhiyuan(YN). We took Si'er car and it was realli cramped inside. Sab was sitting with 3/4 of her butt off the seat! Wonder how she managed to stay put on the seat? And we were sharing cold jokes all the way. Si'er purposely turn extreme RIGHT, and then make us all fall to one side. Hahaha.

I really hope nothing will happen to my friends around me and that all of em incld you, who's reading this, stays happy. Remember yeah? Stay happy and S.M.I.L.E!

Did i mention i was keepin my promise to GOD not to do something. And yes, after knowing it was wrong and repenting instead of repeating the mistake and repenting again and again. I felt much better. I guess i have done myself good. I'm recovering well. Thank you guys fer all ur concern.

Din know that Kaijie had such a good memory?!? Reminding me to do crunches even though he's not ONLINE?!!? oH no. Is this good or bad? But it's good. Spurring me on to a slimmer STOMACH!!

Going fer service tml. And then, join Xiaohan and Shirley and a girl from KT forum fer some SHOPPING! I mustn't be tempted to buy. I think i'll get my $50 pocket money from my mum for this coming week. In case i need to buy something. *smirk smirk*

I wanna buy "The Testament". The book looks real interesting. And great, i haven't finished reading the "Eleven Minutes" that Jean lent me. So happy fer her. She can finally see her sis soon. Her sis's coming back from Australia fer 1 mth fer CNY. Enjoy ur this coming 1 month girl.

Night.

Just some pictures! Cheeky cheeky!















Going to CWP meet mao mao fer some LJS soon. LJS LJS LJS LJS!!

Managed to do 90 crunches with the encouragement by my jie mei. XIE XIE NI. Don't ask me to do 100 crunches today. I'll FAINT.

I dreamt that i have an encounter with Jesus Christ and a female spirit. I wonder what's the linkie?

The female spirit was the one who told me i had 500 sins. And Jesus was the one who told me to believe and have trust in him. But it was scary. The female spirit was calling out to me by my name in a eerie manner. Cindy~~~~ Cindddyyyyy~~~~~

It still gives me the goosebumps even now.

I figure i should place my complete trust and believe in my Lord, Jesus Christ.

Meeting Pekhar @ Causeway Point later fer some lunchie and some SHOPPING!!!

Should i style my hair or should i not?

It'll be so troublesome having to wash the wax out after i reach home and wax my hair again when i'm about to meet Pekhar.

I woke up today, to find myself so cheerful. It's a bright, chirp and beautiful FRIDAY morning!!!

Last of all, Happy Hari Raya Haji to all Malays in SG!!

Reading through my UTM notes with a lamentable expression on my face. It shucks i know. WHAT THE HELL AM I DOING HERE? I should be at Paris eating my supper with Daniel Wu, admiring the streetlights and the night view of Paris. And then flying back to SG in a private jet with him holding on to my hands tightly and whispering to me " Wo yong yuan ai ni...."

Okie, i'm dreaming. Just leave me some room to imagine. I am so LONELY. I'm a lonely fucking old witch who's trapped in this space that i'm confined to, and living on bread and water alone.

Open House todae was quite alright. Had a fun time standing there like a statue. And took some initiative to introduce some of the projects displayed to the secondary school students who were @ our booth. Saw Gregory [ma didi] and Vinna's sister. And then saw Daniel Ang.

He came over and talked to me. Slightly irritated. Can't he see that i'm BUSY!

But nvm, i entertained him with whatever i could. Tried acting like a money. Catching the ball like a seal and tried to play basketball jay chou's style. Nah, just joking. Just sat there and talked to him. Decided to go over to the Convention and queue fer some FREE CANDY FLOSS! So we went over and queued. And the man who was doing the CANDY FLOSS acted like he's dumb and he was trying to act funny which i don't think was funny. Took my Sch of BA tag off my neck and squashed it into my back pocket. Din want to embarrass myself.

Called Grace and asked her to come over and join us fer some FREE CANDY FLOSS!! Which she really did. Had difficulty trying to figure out how to eat that damn BIG PUFFY candy floss. Exchanged shift work with Grace, Siew teng wore the BIG BOARD thing over her body and walked around the whole school while i was was walking beside her and distributing flyers asking people to come visit BLK 72 which was the business block. I felt so DUMB, even dumber than a pig.

Glad that i earned 2 cca points todae.

Finally managed to lay my hands on the NEW CHRISTIAN book Si'er and Sheryln gave me.

I'm fcuking tired. Just don't come and disturb me when my mode is set to BUSY.

Password prompt will POP out when u visit my blog! Please don't be surprised. A number of people thought there was some problems in accessing my blog. I'm touched that there're still the few loyal ones who still visited my blog every now and then. This gives me a reason to continue blogging. Thinking about it, i have blogged for like, 2yrs plus liao?

Justin(ex-YCK) came and chat with me. And he asked me how was BEN and me? I was like DUH?!? Are you trying to fish out some gossips from me or whatever it is? But i just told him the simple reason behind it. And we began to discuss a bit about it. And he asked me about Jialing's r/s. I refused to divulge any further details since this was Jialing's privacy.

I realised i was finally moving on. Able to say what has happened to me without sheding a tear, and having this constant false hope in me that he would be coming back to me. Stupid isn't it?

I find it hard to control my temper at times. I realised my temper was OFF at times. God, teach me how to control my temper please! Jean was tellin me about the ECD project and i guess my temper in me just couldn't control itself and i almost burst out. The 2 of us were supposed to do so many things, including breakeven analysis, prepare financial statements, some ratios etc etc etc. And it's a lot of WORK!! And the other 3 of our group is doing the Marketing project which only involves theories. So how are we supposed to REACT? Freak out cos there's so much work to be done or..... are we supposed to be happy for em that there's so less fer em to do? Nvm, i'm sure we will get this settled somehow.

Anyway i have got 1 great JIEMEI now. You know who u are right? He's one GENG-STER. SISTERHOOD ROCKS!!!! I think he got quite a few nicks from me already. Walking dictionary. Mr neo aka free fitness consultant. Da-jie-da. hao jie mei.

Btw, i have no school tml. E-Learning fer the whole dae. And it will be NP Open House on WED. And i'll hafta wear a white tee and my lanyard. GREAT. And my stupid UTM test is on thurs. GRR.

I'm glad that friends like Ella and Celine is standing by me all along. Praise the lord fer giving me such gd friends.

Might be going shopping with my mum tml. Accompany her. If not, i'll join Gwen and her friends for a movie session tml. See how things goes.

PRAISE THE LORD. I LOVE YOU JESUS.

A morning spent in church and with God, is like sticking energizer batteries onto myself. I feel so energized. All the troubles are out of my reach.

Nasi Lemak fer lunch @ church tastes heavenly.

I pray that God can guide my best friend along and strengthen her. Give her the strength to continue this walk with Jesus. And may she have a blessed week in school this week, regardless of projects or @ home. I hope she can pull through it all with a cheerful mindset, and with you in her mind, she will find the light. I pray that her family can be more understanding towards her and her decision. I pray that Jason's daddy will be okie and continue to recover well. I pray that Peixuan and Celine will be feeling okie and continue to confide in you after alot of things happened to them and may they have a good week ahead. I pray for Zuwei. I pray all these, in the name of Jesus Christ, Amen.

Hope Shiling sends me those bbq pics soon. Our big FAMILY PROTRAIT!!

SINGAPORE won!!!!! I'm so happy!!! A tiger cup finally!!!! The 2nd one actually. The last one was in 1998, which was against Vietnam.

Went ten mile junction with my parents earlier this noon. the things were quite cheap @ sheng siong.

Looking forward to the CNY lantern making with Sabrina Peixuan Celine they all on SAT!!!

I must have all these in my mind
-cheeful mindset
-have a great walk with Jesus this week yet and again!
-spend more time with my family
-divert my attention whenver i start thinking bt him
-fulfil my promise not to do something

GOOD NIGHT.

I think i'd better blog now, if not i'll forget the contents of what i was supposed to blog.

Anyway, i had a great cell today. Learnt about the words of God. And Sabrina really treated us like her primary school students. But it was FUN though. Gave us markers and papers and asked us to write on it. And provided us with files somemore. Markers all over the table. I drew flowers and waters on my papers, to make it look even more interesting. But Sab was a great talker todae. I mean, she gave lotsa examples which further enhances our understanding. And truly speaking, i really felt at peace after i attended this cell.

I feel happy now. I don't know why. I feel there's some purpose to my life now. God is with me. And i really look forward to getting to know more about Jesus and the word of God -Bible-

Celebrated our dearest ZhiYuan birthday after cell. We were busy distracting him while the others were slowly and quietly creeping behind him, with a cake! And i was busy taking photos of ZhiYuan and the others. ZhiYuan really know how to strike poses. So funny. Shiling and Guuu(Peifeng) came too!

And after that, we told ZhiYuan that the 3 of us (Peixuan, Pekhar and Me) were goin home. But in actual fact, we were also going to Jurong Point. Just wanted to gave him a pleasant surprise. Had to sneak here and there @ Jurong Point. At one point, we almost bump into them. And i screamed and the 3 of us ran into one of the shops and pretend to browse through the clothes. Couldn't get into the inner corner of the shop as there was a ladder blocking us. And the lady was looking at us though we had just been released from IMH. Embarrassed yet thrilling!

Went Crystal Jade to have our dinner. 9 of us. Including Si'er.

FUN FUN FUN! We played a lame joke on Pekhar and Peifeng. And laughing like crap. And due to Shiling's "exceptionally high IQ", we din manage to trick her if not we will be laughing like mad outside Popular. HAHAHAHA.

I'm glad i went to cell. Going fer church service tml. And coming home aft that, do tutorial and help Pekhar with her project. Cut satay sticks! Think she must build some model of something. Not exactly sure. But i will HELP u de. Dun worry.

I wanna go do my AAA tutorial liao. CIAO.

I have already broken up with him. It's over between Jielun and me.

Please don't ask me why.



Who ask him to keep calling Jolin?

HMPH!!!

p/s: i hope jay's chou fans don't see this. If not, i'll be cursed by many.

I'm not directing this @ anyone.

But i feel i'm thinking about him a lot which i myself even get sick of. Avenues which i can release what i am thinking and feeling has been exhausted. I don't dare to approach people and tell them what i'm thinking anymore.

There's only me, myself and i right now.

Jean told me to talk about him as often as i wanted to, telling me not to coop all my troubles inside my heart. And not to act happy when i'm not. Coz she said her sis also kept telling her what she felt when her sis broke up with her ex bf.

I'm an actress. The world is my stage.

As i was walking to the bustop from my house, i saw a trail of ants working hard on the pathway. Somehow the sight of it managed to encourage me and lighten my mood, and prepare me for the day. It reminded me of Proverbs 6:6 which read,

"Go to the ant, you sluggard;
consider its ways and be wise!
It has no commander,
no overseer or ruler.
yet it stores its provisions in summer
and gather its food at harvest

How long will you lie there, you sluggard?
When will you get up from your sleep? "

My heart is controlling all the thoughts that have runned through my mind these few weeks. I mustn't be like. I should learn how to divert my attention to other things when i ascertain that i am starting to think about ... again.

I hate Valentine's day. And Chinese New Year.

I gained something -friends-. I lose something -him-. Is it worthwhile?

My tests are coming real soon. I'm glad Grace has asked me to study with em at Causeway lib. Back to those days when i was studying for my exams while trying to figure out what the hell has gone wrong with relationship which resulted in the breakup. Tears was what i had left.

I'm sorry. I really need to talk about this a lot in order to move on.

Going for cell group tomolo with Pekhar. And asking Manping. Too Bad Jiewei have some dental appointment. And church as usual on Sunday. I really need to settle all my tutorial stuffs by Sunday as i would be involved in the NP Open House this coming Wednesday, helping out at the booth. Your must be thinking how did i became so hardworking in such a short time right? Well, not exactly what i wanted either. Blame it on my zero CCAs record in Poly. Had to earn some CCAa points fer myself.

Guess i'm realli addicted to internet. Switched on my laptop the moment i got home.

YAWNZ. Why am i feeling tired at such an early time?

I wanna go clubbing!

Took a lot of pictures using Grace's hp. And i kept setting her wallpaper to my FACE! Guess she must have been puking whenever she saw her handphone. Coz she kept changing her wallpaper and i kept changing for her again. Irritating huh? Hafta be what. We'll be soon spliting to specialise in different things. I hafta kajiao you more. Sad. I don't want to leave ur so FAST!!

Anyway, my first choice fer Specialisation was Human Resource Management [with 6mths of Industrial Attachment]. Next, Human Resource Management with Marketing. 3rd, if i'm not wrong, should be Service Management. Had a choice of 10 altogether. But forgot what i chose. Just anyhow click.

Pekhar is dying fer my maggie mee again. *smirk smirk*

I'll update again.

I'm dead beat now. Just had a nice, smoothing, relaxing, nice smelling [thanks to the strawberry shower gel Shirley gave me fer my X'mas Present] bath. And i enjoyed it pretty much. Hee.

Was over at Jean's place fer the afternoon. And you wouldn't want to see us in that weary state. Our eyes were closing due to the long period of staring at the computer screen. And exhaustion of our mental mind. Which is probably the main reason why we are all cranked up.

I guess i was really irritating just now. Stressed up with that Dreamweaver E-Commerce Project. Was 'sighing and `sighing. And i felt like just lying on the bed and sleep for i was really too tired, drained or whatever you may wish to call it. And Jean was like a lil witch jus now. Or i should say, both of us were like lil witches.

Spent 2 hours figuring and racking our brains fer the hyperlink shit.

Wanted to give up during that 2 hours and complain to tutor on FRI. But we held on. Coz both of us couldn't believe that we couldn't manage such a simple thing. HYPERLINK this thing to another thing?!?

Nway, thanks to Pekhar's de hao xiong di -Kaijie- fer encouraging me.
And Nicholas fer helping me with the Dreamweaver. I know i asked you a lot of questions. Sorry and thanks a lot. I appreciate it a lot.
And to Eve fer helping me with it too.
And lastly to Jean WEE fer encouraging me towards life philosophy. Thanks.
And Grace and Siew Teng fer attempting to help me.

I'm dead beat. Seriously.

And PQS project meeting @ 10am tml. And after UTM[Understanding Media] tutorial, hafta do SQ[Service Quality] Project with Yvonne.

I have got to learn stress management.

Someone who should care for me and stand by me aint here to do so.
Instead someone who i din expect will care for me and offer help did so.
I wanna thank you fer all the support & help you have given.
Yesterday i thought about it after someone passed somethin to me.

I realised I was disappointed with him. Fer not being here for me when i needed him.
Of course, You could say that he din know anything about what happened to me, so therefore he couldn't be here for me. But i'm really sick of finding wacko excuses on behalf of him in order to give myself hope. I should say, false hope. I'm tired of it. I'm sick of it. I'm fcuking sick.

[Evanescence-Missing]

Please, please forgive me,
But I won?t be home again.
Maybe someday you?ll have woke up,
And, barely conscious, you?ll say to no one:
"isn?t something missing?

"You won?t cry for my absence, I know -
You forgot me long ago.
Am I that unimportant...?
Am I so insignificant...?
Isn?t something missing?
Isn?t someone missing me?

[chorus]
Even though I?d be sacrificed,
You won?t try for me, not now.
Though I?d die to know you love me,
I?m all alone.
Isn?t someone missing me?

Please, please forgive me,
But I won?t be home again.
I know what you do to yourself,
Shudder deep and cry out:
"isn?t something missing?
Isn?t someone missing me? "

[chorus]

And if I bleed, I?ll bleed,
Knowing you don?t care.
And if I sleep just to dream of you
And wake without you there,
Isn?t something missing?
Isn?t something...

[chorus]

Went fer interview @ Baden Pub cum Restaurant.

I hope i really can get the damn job.

I wanna thanks Jessie for generously letting me know more about the job.
And Xiaohan fer accompanying me there.
And both Xiaohan & Shirley fer listening to my troubles last night.
And fer trying to think of ways to solve the problem
And even offering financial help.

Admist the true crisis, i saw who my real friends were. I saw how supportive they have been to me. Not complaining once when i kept grumbling. Encouraging me in every single way they could.

Obstacles come after obstacles. I'm reminded that GOD wants to see what my character is like admist the true crisis and how i handle the whole situation. After the crisis and all the unhappiness, there will be a rainbow i'm sure. Only if i work towards that rainbow. If he brings me to it, he will bring me through it.

I'll haf some sweets and sleep now.

Lord, i pray that my father will gain back his senses and do what's right for the family. And not do something that's so wrong. I pray that u will guide him along and bring him towards the light. I pray that with your guidance, he will repent and realise what he did was wrong all along.

I just woke up. Actually wanted to blog before i slept in the morning but was too tired. Had little thoughts running through my mind each time before i fell into deep sleep. But simply was tired and lazy to blog.

Meet Shirley & Xiaohan @ Cine. Went to have a cheapo lunchie due to our tight pocket. And felt very thirsty. Immediately chiong up to K box on the 6th floor to ask about the price for Fri Student Rates. But realised the pricing policies for Friday was totally different for the 4th and 6th floor although they were the same outlet. It totalled ard $20 or plus just fer 2 and a half hours of singing. Next on, we chiong to Partyworld beside HMV. Their package was like $60 plus for 3 person. We can forget about that too.

Was standing outside Partyworld and discussing whether we should just go in and sing anot? Remembered about Lucky Chinatown de K box. We chiong there in a cab and the rate was $13.65++ ( and a 35% discount). Totalled up to $20 per person and we sang from 8pm till 3am. Throat was feeling exceptionally dry.

Halfway through, Shirley went home due to some unforeseen reasons.

And me and Xiaohan stayed on. We picked Atomic Kitten's song and learned their dance steps while standing on the sofas. Those beautiful and classy moves on them looked so awful on us. You wouldn't want to see it for sure. Tried to erm... Act sexy like AK. Sang Alex Du "Tuo diao". Basically screamed the song. Sang Theresa Teng's song and we acted like we were giving our own concerts.

Went to those "pasar malam like" stores to "shop" although no one was in the streets. Absolutely no one. We can basically hear our own footsteps. Walked pass this "Men spa" little store. It looked so inviting. Hahaha. There was 3 of these enormous lighted advertisments on the walls beside the store of Handsome dudes relaxing in the comfy of either SPA, Massage or whatever. And we actually took photos with it. Like pretending to hold their hands etc. Hahaha. CRAZY!!

Lotsa cabs stopped when they saw us on the streets, thinking that we wanted to take cab. Why can't this kind of situation happen on NYE right? Went to 7-11 to eat our pathetic supper. Cup Noodles and Mineral Water. LOL.

Will add photos when i'm free.

Hmmm. It's nearing his depature date. And i'm feeling so distanced. Is it a good thing to break off? A lot of people said being in a LDR will end up nowhere. (from previous thread posts). And some of them said they purposely quarrelled over a small issue and purposely broke off. Because they din want their other half to suffer. HAI. It does slowly makes sense to me.

2 days away from my singlehood of 3 months.

I don't want my friends around me to be sad also. I hope that my newfound brother Zuwei can pick himself up from where he fell. And be strong again.

Now i feel like my home is KT forum when i'm online.

I'm at Jean's place. Just finished eating beehoon and green bean soup! Nice dinner her mum cooked! =]

Finally rushed finish my ECD project. Had a headache from staring @ the screen for too long. Finally completed the powerpoint. To be presented next thurs. And Jean's doing the 1 page report. Hope it wun be too taxing on her. You know i dote on u girl! *pukez* Completed part of our Access project for our E-commerce Denim jeans store. Our denim jeans de brand is Lola. Nice name right? Initially named it CJ & Fitch but that stupid girl said it sounded like a brand which will never get famous so she came up with tat name which was not too bad!

Painted our nails. I love my nails now.

Sorry to Pekhar and Shiling and Zhiyuan. Not able to join ur @ Suntec.

Tomolo's an IS day! And i'm not looking forward to it. It's soooo boring. *yawnz*

Looking forward to a nice and relaxing bath when i get back home later.

Me and Jean talked a lot about relationship de stuff just now. Just hope everything goes well for my dear girl.

I kept peeling my skin of my finger. Area near my nails. It's so disgusting but yet, i can't seem to stop the habit. Someone teach me how to stop!!! In the past, someone used to hit my hands and make "lizard" sounds whenever i peel my skin. HAI. Nono. Cannot think liao.

*SNAP* back to reality.

I feels comforted whenever i see Shirley and mine de wallpaper in my hp. Perks me up and prepare me for the upcoming day. Shirley, never knew u were so impt bah? Stop bullying me and i'll write more good things about ya. Hahahaa. Jus joking.

I wanna thank God for all these friends that he have given me.

It's great that it ain't raining now. Finally saw the sun in so many days.

Today i did another yet stupid thing again. I couldn't bear the urge not to sms him. And so i did. Asked him how he's getting on and after a while, he told me "Not bad! Busy.. Doing duties now.. Take care!"

I mean, is it i'm too sensitive or what. But it gives me the idea that he meant OH i'm getting on well without you in my life. I mean, it did hurts. When i saw that msg, i shook my head and sighed. Not really sure wat that means though. But it has yet given me another reason why i should get over this asap.

Sms my cousins about it. And coincidentally, one of them felt the same as me. Did a stupid thing too. Guess we're in the same boat. But i told her to sms me whenever she feel like sms-ing him. I'll lend her my support just like the way she lend me hers. And the other cousin said she felt like giving me 1 tight slap as to why i sms him. But anyway, i'm glad i'm going to KTV with them this coming friday. An avenue for stress relief and sadness relief.

I thought about a lot of things. Whether i should give myself and others a chance. But i guess it's not the right time now. I don't want to end up hurting someone else. I know the pain too well. I don't want to become best friends with this "PAIN". I'm definately moving on. I want to move on.

ECD and OM lecture was just plain boring. Din even know what the lecturer was talking about. Jean woke up late and therefore missed the 2 lectures and came for AAA tutorial. Realised EH? Company Accounts so easy meh? Perhaps with fellow classmates & tutor de explaination bah. I was so stupid.

Anyway *drum rolls* Now's the time for photos as i promised ur!






Busy drawing the masterpiece.


Copy cat!


Ugly fish that Ivan drawn. for Xiaohan.


US!


For my dearest cousin Xiaohan han han han!


It's for ME!!!


World peace! We want world peace!!


Solemn countdown @ Esplanade. Sorry, my cam a bit lousy during night time.


During 1st service of 2005 @ CHC. with my another dearest cousin. Shirley.


Acting stupid during AAA tutorial just now.


Took this while walking until halfway with JEAN WEE!!!

I guess i gotta wrap my entry up.

Have a good bath first and then start doing my E-Commerce database. And then hmmm. Marketing tutorial. And then hmmm ECD tutorial... And then OM tutorial.

GOSH, i din realise i have so much to do! I'd better hurry!

Just wanna ask all the friends around me to treasure the ones around em. Especially their families. They are your closest one for this lifetime. There will be no next lifetime. Treasure and cherish every moment. Especially when i believe that the end is coming.

Happy NEW year everyone! Plan your new year resolutions starting from today!

Hi All. Feels such a long time from the last time i posted. =)

My countdown was great, spent with Xiaohan and Ivan. Was @ Esplanade for a solemn countdown and had a 1 minute silent time to pray for those who died in the tsunami. Watched "Meet the fockers" which was damn super funny. and hailed cab until my legs almost broke. As it was New Year Eve, we waited for practically an hour plus. Wanted to wait for 5am for the mrt to start its operation, and just nice Ivan managed to hail a cab for us.

Went City Harvest the next day with Shirley and Xiaohan and Shirley's cell group. Can see that Eric was glad to see me in the service. Before that, i told him i couldn't join them for the service as i had a bbq. Contradicts with what i had learnt during bible study. Temptations. Took pictures with Chelsia. Hee hee. She's a great girl. Btw eric's Shirley's cell group leader. =)

Rushed to Shiling's place for bbq with WAC de people which includes Si'er, Sabrina, Juliet, Celine, Zhi Yuan, Shiling, Peixuan, Tracy plus me and jialing and Pekhar. Had great fun learning how to play the guitar and EATING! And discussing about the tsunami stuffs and the things written down in Revelation. Took group pictures. And really, the effect was good. Hope shiling will transfer all dose pictures into her PC soon.

Went for WAC service todae. And took down sermon notes. Learnt quite a bit through these few services i attended. I'm glad i took down notes. And had lunch there. Had a hard time picking out all those "tau gei". Shiling helped me to pick out also. By the time i was done picking, they were already haldway through their food. Gee.

Glad Manping went for the service today. So glad to see you.

Went back home with Pekhar and tried damn hard to do my tutorials. But i just couldn't understand Company Accounts since i was err.. eh... painting my nails during the lecture... Hehehe!Holiday mood during that lecture. And now i can't do the tutorial and the tutorial's tomolo. GREAT.

Once again, Pekhar's face brightened up when i say i was going to cook maggie mee! Can't understand why she LOVES the maggie mee i cooked so much? Right girl? Hehehehe!

Going to sleep soon. And it's only 805 now. Nothing to do. but to sleep.

I'm glad i resisted the urge to SMS him. I prayed to GOD and i can feel that he's helping me along the way. How long more do i need before he's completely erased out of my mind i wonder?

SLEEP!

This is the story of a girl who cried the river and drown the whole world..

I'll update photos when i'm free.